I remember when I first started teaching English at EF, or shall I say first started learning English, hehehehehe. Boy was I devastated when I realized that as intelligent as I thought I was, I knew absolutely nothing about my own language. What the heck was the present perfect tense? If I had been on who wants to be a millionaire, I would have had to phone a friend. But then again, who would I have called? The average native speaker does not know much about English grammar, but I like to think that we get along just fine although severely lacking in English knowledge.
I remember sweating bullets in front of my "students", tons of bullets. I'm surprised that I am still alive today and didn't die due to dehydration. Everyday, I arrived at work super early so that I could crack open those grammar books and study away and after about six months of that my confidence soared and things started making sense. At that point, I started to become proud of being an English teacher. I was actually able to answer my students' questions with the correct answer instead of saying that is just the way it is. Before I knew it, other teachers started coming to me for advice on how to plan their lessons and teaching grammar the correct way.
I remember hanging out on several occasions with other teachers and could not believe what our drunken conversations were about. We would talk for hours about different grammar points, vocabulary, tenses, and so on. Right then and there I realized that my life would never be the same, that I would become this person that could only have a meaningful conversation with other ESL teachers. The first time I went back to America for a visit and went back to my "hood", my homies looked at me like I was literally an alien from another planet. They could not believe the words that came out of my mouth or maybe how the words came out of my mouth. I felt like a freak. I enjoyed talking about English more than just about anything else.
I remember when I first started teaching TOEFL and thanked God that I was born in an English speaking country. At that time I realized that we as ESL teachers are in essence creating a super race of English speakers that can not only effectively communicate but can actually correct a native speaker and tell him/her why he/she is wrong. We are teaching people how to speak better English than we do. Is this crazy or what? In this age of globalization, the native speaker of English reigns supreme because of his/her "mastery" of the international language. But if you really think about it, studies have shown that the average business email written by a native English speaker is completely and utterly structurally unsound. We (native speakers) know this to be true and I am worried that the secret may get out to the rest of the world. Just imagine a day when English is truly spoken by just about everyone, will native speakers be able to have an ESL post or will we be undercut by the products we have created? A super race of English speakers that will take over the world. Just some food for thought i suppose. Please forgive me if this blog has many mistakes. I am just a native speaker after all. :)
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